BBQ at mum's...again

last Sunday we had another round of BBQ at kampung..this time around all the anak sedara were there except Mia Zara Dania...the mother cannot make it sbb p jalan ke Penang...so, as usual my duty to prepare all the food and tukang bakar sapa lagi kalau bukan my two brothers tue...


ada udang, sotong, ikan kembung...


chicken wings and also fruit pudding made by Najwa....


tambah lagi ngan nasi goreng & spaghetti...


budak2 ngan wan depa...


all the nieces... Mia Zara Dania je x de...


pak lang and pak uda..with anak buah from Pedas...

angah..tenok la..tgn kita luka...

another nephew..Zafri..chef in d making.. prefer to play with senduk and periuk...

Un. T pun dtg jugak with frenz...

Zue & Zura.. mlm tue lepak at mum's...pe lagi tdo lambak lar...

this feeling again....

Part I

I Was Reminded

As we lay there quiet I was reminded of all the reasons why I lust you
Your smile, and the way it teased at me seductively
Your laugh,and the way it tempted me
Your eyes, and the way they seem to hypnotize me

As we sat there silent I was reminded of all the reasons why I love you
Your smile, and the way it brings such life into me
Your laugh, and the way it makes everything okay
Your eyes, and the way they seem to read my thoughts

As we stand here now I am reminded of all the reasons why I hate you
Your smile, and the way it confuses me
Your laugh, and the way it seems to mock me
Your eyes, and the way they can look into mine and not feel a thing

Part II

Broken Heart

I will never forget the days we once had
The days when you were everything to me
My mind used to tell me we'd be together forever
But now I realize that was all a big dream
The feelings I have for you will never go
I wish I could take back that one regretful day
The day when I willingly let you slide from my arms
Never did I think of the astonishing pain of regrets
That I would once have to live through
The sight of you in someone else's arms
Makes my heart shatter into a million pieces

I sometimes wonder if you still think of me
Or if to you, I'm just a face in the crowd
I wish so very much that one day we can have it all back
But for now, I'll sit here silently
Remembering all the memories we once shared
Everyday my love grows much stronger
Hoping that one day you will feel the same
And put back the pieces of my broken heart


Part III

What Do They Know

I face the world with a smile, no one knows what is hid inside
They see only happiness, they can't see the tears I've cried
When I am alone I hurt, because here I do it well
In front of all the watchful eyes my heaven turns to hell
The judge and jury awaits me,
Everyone has a say in a life that hangs suspended for yet another day
Who are they to judge if what I have done is right or wrong?
In the end I gave him up, but inside still sing his song
I don't know how to find the strength
I thought I had if only I could play tough it wouldn't be so bad
They say that life goes on and someday I'll smile again
But, how do they know my pain without being where I've been?
I've traveled so far from home,and can't find my way back
Somewhere along the way I must have jumped the track
I saw him just today and his smile is still the same
I wonder if he remembers me,
It hasn't been that long
He may have forgotten me, but I still sing his song

~ lovethepoem.com ~

here comes 2009...sayonara 2008

we have less than a week to the countdown but sad to say that I will be celebrating new year eve at the office..nak buek camno.. dah keje ikut US working hour and they are 12 hrs behind us...so, 12pm MY, they are 12 noon...huhuhu....

so, as if a tradition, everytime new year comes, most of us will surely come up with one long list of resolutions. But to me... what is resolution ek...hehe...as far as I can remember, everytime i buat resolution, it was never achieved ;-) ...hangat2 tahi ayam la tue...

and thinking of the times that we gonna leave behind, have we ever asked ourselves..what have i achieved..what have i done..are there any happy moments that i want to remember or are there too many sad stories that we wanna share with frenz or we just keep inside ourselves.and so on....

i received one call from a friend few days back crying and frustrating...(ada la kesnya...) and i blast her off...but still i lent my shoulder for her to cry on...well, u know..being a good listener..hehe...and the only advise that i can offer her is to ask her to move out from that place..(mind u..she never leave her hometown eversince she finished her school... staying with parents and working there... OMG......) pleaseeee for your own sake, just leave all those sad memories behind and move on...and guess i have been telling her this so many2 times...and the only reason that she will give me is..'i am not strong enough..i m not like you...' what more can i say...

to me life is about choice...you choose your own path and what you want to be..and we might make the wrong choice anyway..but that is life... for us to get all the experience and to learn more about life...life is beautiful and enjoy ur life to the fullest k..

and as for me, for year 2008 i do have few sad moments but still i have those happy moments that i will still keep in mind for me to remember as long as i wish..and hope year 2009 will bring more good news to me and all my frenz out there..and hope to be more prosperous :-)) and i already have a long list of program / activity for next year... as i said earlier...enjoy our lives to the fullest... !!!

Ho..Ho..Ho...Merry Christmas....

We wish you a merry christmas......we wish you a merry christmas.....

well, we have one small christmas tree at our workstation with all the cute ornaments and toys..and many more...except presents..hahaha... anyway, the US Snowbird team was having dance party and gift exchange last nite and guess what i got.. a very cute snow man in glass (i know there is name for this item but i just couldn't remember...well..getting forgetful lately..huhuhu..)..


guess they should have bigger christmas tree..haha...

hello mr snowman..!!

so, to all my frenz who are celebrating Christmas... have a good one and happy holiday to all..hohoho...merry chrismtas..!!

Fadhli with his chocolate....

on the way back to mum's last weekend, singgah Domino jap to buy some pizzas and not forgetting chocolate as well for Fadhli...because i know how he loves choc so much.....and the picture here shows how comot he is :-) and the best part dengan selambanya lap his hand with the melted choc kat baju kakak dia... pandainyaaaaaa.. pizza..??? tak heran langsung...hehe



trademark biasa dia la tue...suka kerut2 kan muka....


najwa and lala... yg baju pink fevret sis si fadhli...ngan najwa asyik gaduh...

my blur moment....

i got so many things to write...so many things to share but they just got stuck in my head... don't know why.....and i tend to forget lately....

hmmm..wonder what is actually wrong with me....sigh...sigh...sigh...don't tell me because of faktor2 umur...oh nooooo.........

tepuk dada tanya selera....

semalam ke Jeram menziarah kematian tok..al-fatihah..cuma sakit tua..according to cucu2 yg kat situ..dah seminggu tok tak mau bercakap.. makan pun nak sendiri...selalu disuapkan...camanepun alhamdullilah suma anak cucu dapat mengadap till the last moment..

bila dah ramai2...terjumpa la mana2 taulan yang dah lama x jumpa and one of them is Hawa..she told me that she just got divorced..from the 2nd marriage (this marriage she got 2 sons). So, i pun tanya kenapa? and kenapa kau nie makin kurus? Rupa2nya d husband selalu pukul dia..and not only the husband anak tiri perempuan yang umur 14 tahun pun sama naik tangan.. I feel so sorry for her and what i could not understand is kenapa? To me d husband got no balls..sebab tue dia boleh pukul wife sendiri... and anak tiri yang kurang ajar... nasib baik ngan Hawa..kalau ngan i tue..mau i lempang je balik..kecik2 dah tunjuk kurang ajar... x sedar selama nie mak tiri yg jaga dia.. yang banyak habiskan duit utk dia.. so to me d conclusion is...ke mana tumpahnya kuah kalau x ke nasi...camane acuan gitu la coraknya.. and i was told that was the guy 5th marriage... now we know nape suma wife dia cabut....so, my advise to her..now ko fokus je la camane nak besarkan budak2 nie.. x yah la pikir nak cari ganti..kalau dapat yang elok x pe la jugak..kalau yang x semenggah... nyusahkan lagi ada lar....

sebab tue l i selalu pesan to my single frens... jangan kawin just for the sake of nak kawin sebab kawan2 yg lain dah kawin...x tahan bila kena sindir2 ngan sedara-mara..orang kampung.. selama nie korang hidup pun..ada mintak makan dengan dorang ke...??? kalau ko susah pun..ada dorang tolong ke..??? bila dah desperate macam tue..mula la main tangkap muat je...sudahnya nyusahkan hidup sendiri... ada org yang selama nie busy body nak tolong..???? sad too say that kualiti lelaki melayu (esp.) sekarang x mcm zaman mak bapak kita dulu..dlm 10 orang nak jumpa 1 yang boleh diharap pun susah... bukan merungut but that is fact... memang isu nie sensitif ..ada yg melenting x tentu hala bila i cakap macam tue but if you are not in that category, nape terasa? lebih makan cili ke..??

i bukan setakat nak gebang kosong but i am saying this thru experience..orang yang kenal bertahun2 pun bila dah sebumbung then only we know their true colour..nie kan plak org yang kita baru kenal...so, dear frens take your time to get to know that someone better and don't rush... menyesal dahulu pendapatan..menyesal kemudian tiada gunanya...tepuk dada tanya selera...

bila hujan tak berhenti......

memang now musim hujan, over the weekend hujan x berhenti2 dari pagi hingga ke petang bawak ke malam...i yg tgh syok2 tdo on Sunday petang tue tetiba dikejutkan oleh siren my mother... suruh alih keta sebab air dah mula bertakung kat tempat i park my car tue.. takut nanti tanah lembik terbenam la plak..(iskh...ingat Bt Antarabangsa ke...??? )


normally i park my car kat porch tp sbb lambat sampai the porch was taken by my sis..so park sebelah my brother's hse..which is just depan umah my mum..

bila anak angkat dah mula membebel.. :-)

lbh kurang kul 11.00am tadi...sayup2 terdengar cam bunyi hp i berdering2...bila i amik je and checked..got 11 missed calls... alamak..anak angkat ku..so, immediately i called back and Dina answered..

Me : Dina called auntie ke td?

Dina: Ha'a...nape x jawab..kita call byk kali

Me : Auntie tdo la sayang.... auntie kan keje malam..pagi tadi abis keje..

Dina: Iye la...jgn la tdo lama2....

Me : he..he... mana ada lama.. auntie baru tdo kul 8.00 td tawww....

Dina : Nanti, bila kita dah besar.. kalau kita x tdo malam... pagi2 pun kita x mau bangun lambat2...

Me : Hmmmmm........(iyo la tue...)

so, dia pun terus la ngadu few things kat i.. memang mcm tue la selalunya..selalu mencurah perasaan (konon2nya..hehe) kat i....pasal kawan2 la...pasal papa nya la..(yg nie selaluuuu....) pasal hpnya lar... macam2...and being a good auntie aka mak angkat.. kena la selalu jadi pendengar setianya....

kan main...posing inside my car with my sunglasses...abih make-up her cousin di kejekannya...

Zue admitted....

Zura called me last Sunday nak habaq Zue admitted sbb dengue.. Pas balik dari mendaki Gunung Cemerong, Terengganu, not only Zue demam, Zura pun sama and few others in the group. Luckily there was a doctor in the group yg blh tengok2kan dia.. so, I called Zue and said 'kalau x sempat arini, Monday k faiz p jenguk' ..but then Monday pun x sempat because i had to send my nephews balik to Pedas. Nak p Tuesday but i was not feeling well so tdo je la sehari.. then ptg semalam dpt sms from zura telling me 'zue merajuk.. ko dekat pun x mau melawat dia. Dia kata mentang2 la dia x penting'.. alamak.. sensitipnya minah nie la plak..so petang semalam, i pun p la jenguk dia kat KPJ Kajang..and alhamdullilah dah sihat and patutnya dah boleh discharge..

according to the mum, rupa2nya masa detected dengue tue pun dah tahap kritikal jugak..dah penuh bintik2 merah the whole body and dah muntah darah. When she was warded at hospital besar Kajang, sekali dengan org2 yg dah consider tenat sbb bila dia bangun the next day.. tempat tue tinggal dia sorang je and when asked, the nurse said.. passed away dah org2 yg semalam... alamak... so i pun pe lagi terus je sound dia... 'tue suma dah tanda2 tue....sudah2 la keluar masuk hutan...turun naik gunung... cukup2 la tue... ' and the mother plak sokong i lagi.. and as at yesterday, Zue kata memang dia nak berenti dah..nak jual suma camping equipment and bags..so bersaksikan the mother, dia janji nak stop dah activity nie..x pe..i nak tengok ... tp i cakap..'pas nie kalau k. faiz dgr ada ura2 korang nak masuk hutan lagi...aku pijak je...' and the mother cakap 'pijak je faiz'...hehe... mak dia siap sound lagi.. 'faiz pun dah berenti ko bila nak berenti?'.. (makcik, i berenti sbb dah x fit..pancit sokmo. Nyusahkan org lain je nak kena angkut bag..hehe.. lgpun kecederaan buku lali x mengizinkan.. huhuhu..kalau p pun..sure sepanjang jalan i akan merungut..duk umah lepak tgk tv lg best..tp bila sampai kat base camp..hilang penat.....lagi2 kalau khemah kat ngan sungai...best tawww...) tp si zue and zura ni kalau kena sorang lg yg sound baru dia takut kot.. i nie dia 2nd takut...yg takut sekali ngan k. izan dia ;-))) sib baik k. izannya tue jauh kat Kuantan..x kalu sure kena kaw2 punya...

so, nak sedapkan hati dia..i bagitau..'pas nie kalau nak camping pun, kita p camping kat Bt Cherakah je la :-) or kita cari la aktiviti lain plak..' Zue kata pas nie nak main pantai plak.. i kata ok la.. lgpun dah lama x kena air laut nie...so next year kita plan ok... senang2 kita p umah k izan je.. dekat ngan pantai... (zan, boleh ke??? )